I visited Nashik for 2 Days after 1 Year !!!

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         For two days, I went to Nashik...The city where I have completed my 11th and 12th..the toughest time of my life..The time when I was struggling with my psycho-attitudes..the time when I was giving sleepless nights to my parents..the time when I was committing the biggest crime of my life..The time when I was trying to suicide..The time when I was least interested in living..The time when I used to sit at the Nashik Railway Station and write poems on Suicide and Loneliness...It was really a struggling period..I completed my 11th from Bytco college..where I failed with just 8% in Science Subjects..It was a devastating time for me..After that I wasn't admitted on the regular basis in the college even after we were ready to pay the amount for donation..At last, I was externally admitted and I had no right to sit in the lectures and laboratories...I was admitted in the Chate classes as it was a rumour that Chate makes an incomplete boy into a whole and perfect figure...I also had a hope that they will teach in a simple way that I 'll understand everything and I'll do something great in the 12th std...

             It was the period when I used to attend Chate classes for 5 hours and attend Cyber cafe with my friends for next 8 hours..Which made my life enjoyable that time but later I felt that I throwed my parent's effort in some wrong place..I should have avoided it..I felt so bad that I felt like crying sometimes but I was so addicted that it was very hard to ignore this routine of my life..This was the time when I had many friends who are still in contact with me and we have very good bonding..I stayed at the home of two good friends..Enjoyed a lot..The worst part of the Nashik city for me was the absence of friendship with any girl..I missed this very much..Here , I proposed two girls but both of them refused me as I was very thin then with a bony figure as I was sick and was going through treatment..One of the girl was proposed at the entrance of the college where she refused to talk and I kicked her cycle and the cycle fell down and I ran from there in the speed of Pulsor-220 CC... And the second was in the Muktidham Mandir..where I called a girl alone and she came with 3 other friends..It was the worst part to deal with her infront of three friends who were staring at every part of my body..Yaa..Every part means every part..So at last, The life was cool with friends but stuck when it came to my health, affairs and relationship with parents...

             Finally I gave my 12th exam there..and after that I moved from this shrine of Sai baba towards Mumbai on 15th April,2009...So it has been some 1 year.I have left this place..but even after such a long time I visited it..I felt everything very fresh..I remembered each and every moment I shared with my friends here and with one of my facet of my life here..I really got to know a Real me here in this city..I talked with myself here because I always felt that there was a same me always standing besides me as they show in the programmes on Television..I remembered every appointment with psychiatrist here..Every appointment with gemologist here..Every appointment with dating girls here who refused to be my partners..I remembered every time I walked towards cyber-cafe..Also remembered the time I spent in Cyber-cafe with my friends and cyber-wallaah..Really it was a wonderful time..Which I can never forget in my life..Nashik..I love you a lot..

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ABHILASH RUHELA - VEERU at 12.25 AM